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isn't it funny how things change. yeah i know, things change all the time, but sometimes, changes are huge, meaning abnormal. and i've never really felt that feeling before, until now. its like something hit me. yanno, like at a point in your life.. there're people whom you thought you'd be close with for the rest of your life, and now, thats not so true anymore. i feel kinda sad actually. i really do. because we can say it, but it isn't anymore.. is it? and its difficult to revert to old ways, cause let's face it.. things aren't even remotely close to the way they were anymore.
when you get to know, like know, people again. its difficult to put into words, because it would be sorely inadequate. you feel happy with the people whom you always hung out with, but then you realised, hey, that wasn't really them. and you feel grateful that they've let you in, into their world and accept you. and that feeling my friends, is the nicest feeling of all.
and then there are times where you had that endless amount of fun and never wanted it to end. and i guess, its purpose was just that in itself, fun. or during that period of absolute loneliness, when some lose their way, and you felt like you were falling, and by instinct, reached out to people, and surprise, because they break your fall.
but i guess that's how things are. people come and go, they change, interests change, and then it happens. before you know it, you've change. and when you realise this change, the sadness comes. all we can do is to not lose the person completely and try like hell to keep those around you now, cause sooner or later.. change happens and all ur left with.. are memories to keep.
give me all your fear, and throw it all away. think about the good things, no matter what they say. we'll take tomorrow baby, one day at a time.
yours truly
